Obvious apology is obvious;
Sorry I've taken so long in this journal entry. I'm . . . no so good about revealing my stuff about me publicly so without much experience in the matter, and without much gusto, let's dive right in: Present
So . . . Twenty Eight. Twenty eight years have gone by and I find myself in a kind of limbo. I have a steady job that doesn't pay a whole lot, but it's better than being jobless. I have a whole condo to myself at a very cheap rate, but I'm not sure if I'll have to move again and regardless I still don't make enough to SAVE any substantial amount of money.
Going back to school is almost an impossibility for me because I have so many credit hours the local college here was saying I'd have to pay DOUBLE tuition. Since four hundred dollars a credit-hour doesn't really appeal to me, I find myself having to fall back on the one thing I'm not totally crap at to make some extra money . . . .
My art, in fact, is the one aspect of improvement but I, for some reason, haven't had the gumption to share that. I've made plenty of sketches and even a few colored pages but I'm saving them for a backlog for what I do have planned and who knows, maybe one day actually start;
And although I've finally gotten around to getting my paypal account working properly again (I've made a new account), I still don't think I'm ready nor willing to do commission work, even though I enjoy making my own comics.
I'd like to have a website, but I no nothing about coding beyond very basic html and lack the drive regardless. Thankfully, other avenues of success have been opening up.
See, I've been toying with the idea of starting a Patreon account and putting my art there first for donations, sharing my art with non-donators at a later date. I've been trying to figure out a steady rate of uploading and I think I could just about handle one comic update a week for patreon and one every two weeks for DA and other sites. From there, assuming monetary growth would actually occur, I could afford to pay somebody for a web design and ultimately make money through ad-hosting on said site.
I just need to swallow the weird feelings I have about it and do it . . . .
I . . . just haven't . . . . yet . . . . .
Maybe it's the work load I already have at my day-job (or night job, technically, but that's beside the point) but I think I just need to quit making excuses for myself and launch the damn thing already. We'll see if I can do it within the year
Self loathing aside, I'm . . . actually doing alright. I'm working harder at maintaining my health, I'm pretty much a VIP at my job, (though I constantly tell myself anybody can be fired and to not get too complacent), I'm at least drawing on a regular basis, even though I'm not showing it. And to top it off, I'm STILL getting watchers (a billion thankyous by the way) in spite of my absences.
So, assuming things keep on getting better and my art starts making me money again, (fingers crossed), here's what I can think of in the not too distant . . . .Future
I still want to finish Wedding Bliss and The Good Witch. But I also have an idea to go back to the book I wrote, flesh out a few things, completely change others, and making a functioning sketch comic out of Max Gardner and his crazy ability to swap genders. And, because it would be a sketch comic, it would update faster than WB or TGW, though I would need to be making enough money to work less days at my other job in order for that to happen.
I don't know if I'll NEVER take commissions again, but to be honest (har har), I don't really enjoy doing them. True, I learn quite a bit about myself as an artist in taking commissions, but I honestly derive no joy from them. That being said, I'm not refusing to EVER do commissions again. If the need arises, it's a skill I can perform, even if I have no job. So I'm not saying it's impossible, just improbable with my current ideas and workload.
For the far future . . .
Who knows? I like the idea of doing scientific research for things like transhumanism (the belief that humans can one day transcend our current biological clocks and live much longer, if not indefinite lives). I've even played with the notion of learning how to make clothing for cross-dressers like myself, though that's definitely more a fantasy at this stage in my life than a borderline-obsessive passion.
In any case, again, I'm sorry I've taken so long with this and so long with art updates in general. I do want to make more art and try to supplement my income with it, but at least for now, know that I'm doing well enough and I'm very thankful for it.
As always, you guys rock.