Guys, I'm going to be honest.
I'm losing my drive to make comics.
Well . . . sort of. I'm losing my drive to actually do the WORK needed to make these comics. Ideas and stories wise I've got more than enough, in fact, that's part of the problem.
And I don't like this lack of a resolve. I used to stay up WAY past the time to go to sleep just to finish a page. Now I find it hard to simply start . . .
I've heard of burnout for artists but I really haven't been producing much of anything to constitute a burnout. In fact, I think it's the other way around. I'm burnt out form not making a single page in AGES.
I don't know what it is exactly but there's a few things I can think of.
It's a conumdrum. I have a really high monthly rent that requires I work at least thirty to forty hours a week. That in itself isn't so bad, but because I keep an "open availability" with my job, I frequently find myself working over forty and often fifty hours per week. Hell, today I finished an eleven hour shift and I'm about to go on another ten hour shift tomorrow and another the next day and another the next day, and finally I have ONE day off. It's insane and I'm kind of scared to put my foot down because financially I need all the hours and money I can get. The problem is I'm often tired as hell and well exhausted.
Also, I don't have a normal working schedule. I'm pretty much slated to come to work whenever I'm needed so I could be working graveyard shifts one day that will lead into two day shifts the next. Then I'll have another graveyard shift and three day shifts. Then four night shifts. It's insane.
And I don't hate my job either. In fact, it's downright pleasant. But very exhaustive at the end of the day. When I get home I don't want to do much of anything but veg out and sleep.
I think a lot of writers face this delimma. I'm constantly thinking of new story ideas and scenarios for different narratives and they're all vying for my attention. It makes things hard to FOCUS, you know? It's part of the reason I've been trying to stay with Wedding Bliss DX, but SO MANY PEOPLE have stated they wanted more of TGW.
And I've got sequels to TGW planned as well as completely different stories. On top of that, I even have new ideas for BRAIN FOOD [including possibly a new title].
I mean, not too long ago I had this idea for a society that basically all decide together they're going to kill a young man based on a tradition that's lasted for eons, and the man really does nothing but read comic books and wants to keep to himself. It drives him into hiding and he actually escapes, only now he's got a new identity and MAJOR ptsd. He meets another man who initially doesn't know it's him and they form a romance (turns out they're both gay or bi). Adventure and mystery and crossdressing and homoerotica and fetish play all rolled into one.
I had another idea about about a group of humans who crashland on this planet in another time and it turns out it's inhabited by elves and drow and the only humans around have black hair and brown eyes (a la planet of the apes). One of them ends up saving a drow girl's life (she can't swim) and she crushes on him as he and his friends are enslaved. She attempts to make this human her prime husband but through her own problems and divine botchery the spell she cast to turn him into a drow male turns him instead into a drow female. From there more mystery and adventure and drama and comedy. Laughter and tears.
And that's just two.
Sequels I have planned for TGW involve a mysterious island in a cross between Jurassic Park and the Stepford Wives and it involves a major character from the current TGW. And the sequel to THAT takes place years after the first TGW and is basically my take on Sailor Moon or Magical Girl anime in general.
For the sake of brevity, though, I'll move on.
So, bounce some ideas off me here cause I'm exhausted
Should I ask for help?
Well, I mean, I'm sort of doing that now, but I mean in the production of my comics?
Should it all be comics? Should some of my ideas make better novels?
What do YOU guys think I should do?
Right now I just want to . . . . sleep.
Thanks for reading in any case. I WANT to keep making comics, but I also want to remain (somewhat) sane.